Comments on: My life is going nowhere :( http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/ Mail in your postcard confessions anonymously Mon, 16 Jan 2012 19:29:19 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 By: Anon-e-mouse http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/comment-page-1/#comment-19680 Anon-e-mouse Thu, 02 Dec 2010 06:20:44 +0000 http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/#comment-19680 I thinks its funny that the earlier posts were very motivational and then there are alot of people complaining. Dont hate cause My life is in a rut. I feel like life isnt moving forward instead its moving in reverse. But thanks everyone for the good laugh, i still hate where my life is. since i dont know how to focus on the positives of my life (maybe cause i dont have any) i focus on what could have been worse. so instead of a crappy house i couldve been out on the street. but its sooo hard. i feel like shit on someones shoes. i just live to make ppl annoyed for how useless i am. is this life is really supposed to be like... i should do good things and hope there is a better afterlife instead of being shammed into hell. THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS I wish we were all happy like we used to be in middle school. I wish I could bake a cake made of rainbows and smiles and everyone would eat and be happy. - crying girl from mean girls I thinks its funny that the earlier posts were very motivational and then there are alot of people complaining. Dont hate cause My life is in a rut. I feel like life isnt moving forward instead its moving in reverse. But thanks everyone for the good laugh, i still hate where my life is. since i dont know how to focus on the positives of my life (maybe cause i dont have any) i focus on what could have been worse. so instead of a crappy house i couldve been out on the street. but its sooo hard. i feel like shit on someones shoes. i just live to make ppl annoyed for how useless i am. is this life is really supposed to be like… i should do good things and hope there is a better afterlife instead of being shammed into hell.

THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS
I wish we were all happy like we used to be in middle school. I wish I could bake a cake made of rainbows and smiles and everyone would eat and be happy. – crying girl from mean girls

]]> By: James http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/comment-page-1/#comment-19645 James Wed, 24 Nov 2010 13:43:51 +0000 http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/#comment-19645 I can relate to SO many of you and it is reassuring to know that I'm not alone. I'm a 27 year old whose passion is music and art but my anxiety and feelings of great inferiority have prevented me from doing anything worthwhile with my talents. I've written and recorded my own songs since I was a kid. Unfortuneatly the only people who hears the recordings are my mom and gf and a couple friends. As a kid I always dreamed to be a "rock star" but as I got older and reality sank in, that dream just slipped away. I've thrown out that idea long ago and would be more than happy to be in a backup band etc. I've never really had a job. I've been on disability for depression since I was 18. I never finished school. I've tried many times to go back and finish but I always give up. I've never ever had many friends. Right now I don't really have anyone that I hang out with or talk to except my gf who lives with me. It doesnt help that the city I live in seems to be filled with stuck up people who wouldn't give you the time of day. I have much to be grateful for. I know there are so many people out there far, far worse off than me. That is why I feel such guilt inside of me. I feel guity for not working, I feel guilty for owning nice, expensive guitars. I dont deserve these things! I am in no way rich but with the help of my family over the years I have accquired these possessions. Every waking hour I feel this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach - this unfufillment, this feeling that I've wasted my life and I continue to waste it by not making any changes. I'm extremely afriad of failure but nothing could be worse than how I feel now. So why can't I change?? I feel I'm too shy, too different, too overweight to fit in anywhere and accomplish my goals. So I sleep all day (sometimes all night too), constantly miss and reschedule appointments and basically live an unhappy existance. I'm constantly wishing and hoping to connect with someone out there. Someone who understands how I feel and who won't judge me. I am a kind, loving person and I want to be social, meet new people, go new places and enjoy life. But I feel so different from anyone else. I look at old school friends on facebook and see that they're engaged or married and have graduated with this degree and that degree. One is a chiropractor, another a pharmasist, a teacher. What am I? I'm nothing. I've been the same for the last 10 years with hardly anything to show for it. How can I change my situation? How can I start to lead a happy, successful life? HOW?? If there's anyone out there that understands or feels the same, feel free to message me. I'm a good listener. cornwallace27 at hot mail Take care and good luck everyone! I can relate to SO many of you and it is reassuring to know that I’m not alone.

I’m a 27 year old whose passion is music and art but my anxiety and feelings of great inferiority have prevented me from doing anything worthwhile with my talents. I’ve written and recorded my own songs since I was a kid. Unfortuneatly the only people who hears the recordings are my mom and gf and a couple friends. As a kid I always dreamed to be a “rock star” but as I got older and reality sank in, that dream just slipped away. I’ve thrown out that idea long ago and would be more than happy to be in a backup band etc.

I’ve never really had a job. I’ve been on disability for depression since I was 18. I never finished school. I’ve tried many times to go back and finish but I always give up. I’ve never ever had many friends. Right now I don’t really have anyone that I hang out with or talk to except my gf who lives with me. It doesnt help that the city I live in seems to be filled with stuck up people who wouldn’t give you the time of day.

I have much to be grateful for. I know there are so many people out there far, far worse off than me. That is why I feel such guilt inside of me. I feel guity for not working, I feel guilty for owning nice, expensive guitars. I dont deserve these things! I am in no way rich but with the help of my family over the years I have accquired these possessions.

Every waking hour I feel this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach – this unfufillment, this feeling that I’ve wasted my life and I continue to waste it by not making any changes. I’m extremely afriad of failure but nothing could be worse than how I feel now. So why can’t I change?? I feel I’m too shy, too different, too overweight to fit in anywhere and accomplish my goals. So I sleep all day (sometimes all night too), constantly miss and reschedule appointments and basically live an unhappy existance.

I’m constantly wishing and hoping to connect with someone out there. Someone who understands how I feel and who won’t judge me. I am a kind, loving person and I want to be social, meet new people, go new places and enjoy life. But I feel so different from anyone else.

I look at old school friends on facebook and see that they’re engaged or married and have graduated with this degree and that degree. One is a chiropractor, another a pharmasist, a teacher. What am I? I’m nothing. I’ve been the same for the last 10 years with hardly anything to show for it.

How can I change my situation? How can I start to lead a happy, successful life? HOW??

If there’s anyone out there that understands or feels the same, feel free to message me. I’m a good listener. cornwallace27 at hot mail

Take care and good luck everyone!

]]> By: d http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/comment-page-1/#comment-19617 d Tue, 16 Nov 2010 00:33:59 +0000 http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/#comment-19617 good to know. everyday i feel like a bigger and bigger waste of space. it feels like i go from one bad decision to the next faster and faster. i make bigger and bigger mistakes to try and fix the previous thing i messed up. although im at the place where i dont know what's going on, i do know iv had good times before though. i know that there are those rare days where i tell myself that i am lucky to be here and lucky to have the life i have. so sometimes i just have to hold on to those memories, however old and faraway they may be at the time. and like the nihilist, iv thought that sucicide was the only logical choice sometimes too. like if a then b=die. but that can't be right. I haven't been through 24 years on this planet just to say the experiment is over. There's a God watching over my life and seeing my mistakes and seeing my heart. He loves me and cares for and gave himself for me. The times that I remember my savior and commune with him are the times that this life is worth living. Those are the times i can 'look at the stars and feel like myself.' I'm learning that everyone can't easily buy into Christianity but for me personally, it's the only hope I have. The cross is the only thing i can ever run to for meaning and refuge. good to know. everyday i feel like a bigger and bigger waste of space. it feels like i go from one bad decision to the next faster and faster. i make bigger and bigger mistakes to try and fix the previous thing i messed up. although im at the place where i dont know what’s going on, i do know iv had good times before though. i know that there are those rare days where i tell myself that i am lucky to be here and lucky to have the life i have. so sometimes i just have to hold on to those memories, however old and faraway they may be at the time. and like the nihilist, iv thought that sucicide was the only logical choice sometimes too. like if a then b=die. but that can’t be right. I haven’t been through 24 years on this planet just to say the experiment is over. There’s a God watching over my life and seeing my mistakes and seeing my heart. He loves me and cares for and gave himself for me. The times that I remember my savior and commune with him are the times that this life is worth living. Those are the times i can ‘look at the stars and feel like myself.’ I’m learning that everyone can’t easily buy into Christianity but for me personally, it’s the only hope I have. The cross is the only thing i can ever run to for meaning and refuge.

]]> By: kaitlyn http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/comment-page-1/#comment-19542 kaitlyn Sat, 06 Nov 2010 20:48:29 +0000 http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/#comment-19542 I also googled "my life is going nowhere" cause its not im 18 not finished high school im depressed stuck in a rut, suffering from bulimia i hate myself i think im absolutely just gross I need to spend no less than 2 hours a day trying to perfect myself before i step outside to do anything, theres a lot of time wasted right there, need to sleep at least 12 hours a day to actually feel rested, id never wake up if I didnt have to. work at a shitty call center and probably will for the rest of my life and live in a run down crappy little apartment. I had big dreams when I was little now im too unmotivated to even dream about anything I dont know what im going to do, time is running out I also googled “my life is going nowhere” cause its not
im 18 not finished high school im depressed stuck in a rut, suffering from bulimia i hate myself i think im absolutely just gross I need to spend no less than 2 hours a day trying to perfect myself before i step outside to do anything, theres a lot of time wasted right there, need to sleep at least 12 hours a day to actually feel rested, id never wake up if I didnt have to. work at a shitty call center and probably will for the rest of my life and live in a run down crappy little apartment. I had big dreams when I was little now im too unmotivated to even dream about anything
I dont know what im going to do, time is running out

]]> By: Rudy http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/comment-page-1/#comment-19426 Rudy Mon, 18 Oct 2010 13:13:28 +0000 http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/#comment-19426 Stop being sorry for ur selves n keep holding on u never know when the ray might shine.... they say after every night there is a day.... my life is still stuck n will be unless something happens... but wht? when ? or never ....so its better to be happy in wht ever state ur in ..... God is very kind and Gracious. Stop being sorry for ur selves n keep holding on u never know when the ray might shine…. they say after every night there is a day….

my life is still stuck n will be unless something happens… but wht? when ? or never ….so its better to be happy in wht ever state ur in ….. God is very kind and Gracious.

]]> By: bob12 http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/comment-page-1/#comment-19292 bob12 Fri, 24 Sep 2010 04:13:17 +0000 http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/#comment-19292 Im 22 and have recently had to move back in with my parents ,because im incapable of holding down a job or college course. I feel like such a failure to my family and friends , and im constantly plauged by feelings of shame and regret. The only relief i get is through abusing alcohol. All i want is to get some sort of direction and meaning back in to my life , and it frightens me that i dont know how to do that. Im 22 and have recently had to move back in with my parents ,because im incapable of holding down a job or college course. I feel like such a failure to my family and friends , and im constantly plauged by feelings of shame and regret. The only relief i get is through abusing alcohol. All i want is to get some sort of direction and meaning back in to my life , and it frightens me that i dont know how to do that.

]]> By: godschild http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/comment-page-1/#comment-18842 godschild Fri, 04 Jun 2010 05:14:07 +0000 http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/#comment-18842 hi i came to discuss my life as a confuse soul.everyday i find myself lazy and scared to take a risk about my life, im 22 years old and still dont know how to live a life as a mature adult.im currently working at publix and staying with my aunt and with my 17 year old cousin, which i share the same room and bed with.what will it takes 4 me to wake up.all my life i consider myself as being dump and a talentless waste of human.sometime i wonder why god make me, cause i look around at everybody and notice everyone is better than me.im nothing special.i cant stay motivate if my life depend on it.during my teenage years i quitted life and try to kill myself but god still have me here for a reason but i dont know why.im not smart, bold, brave,or have a sigle bit of talent.why must i live on earth to watch myself fall apart as a person. hi i came to discuss my life as a confuse soul.everyday i find myself lazy and scared to take a risk about my life, im 22 years old and still dont know how to live a life as a mature adult.im currently working at publix and staying with my aunt and with my 17 year old cousin, which i share the same room and bed with.what will it takes 4 me to wake up.all my life i consider myself as being dump and a talentless waste of human.sometime i wonder why god make me, cause i look around at everybody and notice everyone is better than me.im nothing special.i cant stay motivate if my life depend on it.during my teenage years i quitted life and try to kill myself but god still have me here for a reason but i dont know why.im not smart, bold, brave,or have a sigle bit of talent.why must i live on earth to watch myself fall apart as a person.

]]> By: k.i.a. http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/comment-page-1/#comment-18817 k.i.a. Fri, 28 May 2010 18:46:26 +0000 http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/#comment-18817 hi ed....i totally know where you are coming from... a little older than you i still have the same passion...music...i started in the performing arts theatre dance etc...i always wrote peotry and fell into studio work..i have written many songs...ive married twice and have had both husbands make me feel it was time to be giving 'this thingup'...i have 2 children and they are my work on top of working..ive done it all..i have tosay i am proud..i lived in a beautiful place...was a popular radio host and opened in amusic fest for the top music artists in the world...that was all fun...but im still not making a living....still treading water , still trying to be a mom, provider.....a song i wrote is on the verge of being picked up by a big star in the uk....its been played in abc on a famous soap opera and used in areality show in vegas...but im tiredand still praying that i can one day feel like it was worth he wait....´never give up they say.....i guess whenyou have kids lik me the rope gets thinner and thinner and you start to wonder....i would say focus on your passion and....just keep going... hi ed….i totally know where you are coming from… a little older than you i still have the same passion…music…i started in the performing arts theatre dance etc…i always wrote peotry and fell into studio work..i have written many songs…ive married twice and have had both husbands make me feel it was time to be giving ‘this thingup’…i have 2 children and they are my work on top of working..ive done it all..i have tosay i am proud..i lived in a beautiful place…was a popular radio host and opened in amusic fest for the top music artists in the world…that was all fun…but im still not making a living….still treading water , still trying to be a mom, provider…..a song i wrote is on the verge of being picked up by a big star in the uk….its been played in abc on a famous soap opera and used in areality show in vegas…but im tiredand still praying that i can one day feel like it was worth he wait….´never give up they say…..i guess whenyou have kids lik me the rope gets thinner and thinner and you start to wonder….i would say focus on your passion and….just keep going…

]]> By: ed http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/comment-page-1/#comment-18697 ed Mon, 17 May 2010 05:59:34 +0000 http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/#comment-18697 hi i googled " my life is going nowhere" and found this blog..its nice to know i am not alone. I'm 32 and i am a musician/sound engineer/mechanical engineer and for the past 8 years i have given everything for a dream that never came true, i recorded and album with a friend who turned out to be a terrible person, i put all of my time money and love into it, and nothing happened. i love making music and i do it very well, it is a talent that was given to me and i feel privileged to have, but it is so hard to have this talent and not be able to do anything with it, many praise my songs( and i don't wanna be arrogant, but it's the truth people inside the business with grammy's and stuff), and the things i do, but i can't make money with it, i have not been given a real chance and that pisses me off. I still live with my mother, i have a girl i love but i just feel like a failure, and now i just finished a sound engineering course and realized that i don't really want to be just behind a board moving knobs, my thing is making the music, not just assisting to record it, and that brings me back to the same place i started. no money no job, no real accomplishment. They tell us to work hard and that if you follow your dreams and work for it them they will come true, but that is just no true, it only works in the movies i guess. It's hard to see all your friends evolving while I'm stuck in the same place as 10 years ago. i have worked as a mechanical engineer but i hate it... i really don't know what my future will be. but it seems like life ever since i graduated just never gets easy. i won't lie i have had a great life, and i am grateful for my parents specially my mother, who love me so much, i have traveled a lot and seen many places, but It has been thanks to my parents, I feel like i have not gotten anything on my own, and that is a terrible feeling. thanks for listening and take care everybody hi i googled ” my life is going nowhere” and found this blog..its nice to know i am not alone. I’m 32 and i am a musician/sound engineer/mechanical engineer and for the past 8 years i have given everything for a dream that never came true, i recorded and album with a friend who turned out to be a terrible person, i put all of my time money and love into it, and nothing happened. i love making music and i do it very well, it is a talent that was given to me and i feel privileged to have, but it is so hard to have this talent and not be able to do anything with it, many praise my songs( and i don’t wanna be arrogant, but it’s the truth people inside the business with grammy’s and stuff), and the things i do, but i can’t make money with it, i have not been given a real chance and that pisses me off. I still live with my mother, i have a girl i love but i just feel like a failure, and now i just finished a sound engineering course and realized that i don’t really want to be just behind a board moving knobs, my thing is making the music, not just assisting to record it, and that brings me back to the same place i started. no money no job, no real accomplishment. They tell us to work hard and that if you follow your dreams and work for it them they will come true, but that is just no true, it only works in the movies i guess. It’s hard to see all your friends evolving while I’m stuck in the same place as 10 years ago. i have worked as a mechanical engineer but i hate it… i really don’t know what my future will be. but it seems like life ever since i graduated just never gets easy. i won’t lie i have had a great life, and i am grateful for my parents specially my mother, who love me so much, i have traveled a lot and seen many places, but It has been thanks to my parents, I feel like i have not gotten anything on my own, and that is a terrible feeling. thanks for listening and take care everybody

]]> By: Luca http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/comment-page-1/#comment-18157 Luca Mon, 05 Apr 2010 13:00:28 +0000 http://www.confessmail.com/2007/08/15/my-life-is-going-nowhere/#comment-18157 I just googeled the phrase " my life is going nowhere " just for the sake of it. Because google knows it all, and maybe it would give me some advice. So here i am. i just finished reading the previous posts, and its a relief to know im not alone in this mess we call LIFE. Im 24 years old. Love music, reading , historiy, all forms of arts. And i happen to know a lot about it. But my knowledge is of no use in the practical everyday world. I dont want to be a mall manager i dont want to study something i hate, for i will continue to hate my life afterwards. I dont want to work 8 hours in a job i hate just to buy shit i dont really need. People say " you have the chance to study , you should take it, only a fool... " Everyone around me seem to be so sure about what they want to do with their life. I just cant forget the fact that we are actually floating on a rock through space... We have no idea what we are doing here, then why the fuck should i care about dow jones? or having 2 kids and a golden retriver. The green grass. The stupid wife. Its all just a big waste. I dont intentd to sound like a russian nihilist here but... Dosent the answer jump in front of yours eyes all of the sudden? By this i mean suicide. To me it seems like the only honest choice right now. I cant keep on trying, i never finish anything. Im completely useless and unpractical. Ah at least its nice knowing im not the only one who thinks like this. Take care out there, and keep searching... I just googeled the phrase ” my life is going nowhere ” just for the sake of it.
Because google knows it all, and maybe it would give me some advice.
So here i am. i just finished reading the previous posts, and its a relief to know im not alone in this mess we call LIFE.
Im 24 years old. Love music, reading , historiy, all forms of arts. And i happen to know a lot about it.
But my knowledge is of no use in the practical everyday world.
I dont want to be a mall manager
i dont want to study something i hate, for i will continue to hate my life afterwards.
I dont want to work 8 hours in a job i hate just to buy shit i dont really need.
People say ” you have the chance to study , you should take it, only a fool… ”

Everyone around me seem to be so sure about what they want to do with their life.
I just cant forget the fact that we are actually floating on a rock through space…
We have no idea what we are doing here, then why the fuck should i care about dow jones? or having 2 kids and a golden retriver. The green grass. The stupid wife.

Its all just a big waste.
I dont intentd to sound like a russian nihilist here but…
Dosent the answer jump in front of yours eyes all of the sudden?
By this i mean suicide.

To me it seems like the only honest choice right now.
I cant keep on trying, i never finish anything.
Im completely useless and unpractical.

Ah at least its nice knowing im not the only one who thinks like this.
Take care out there, and keep searching…

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